Hungry....

Was knocked out last night, not by anything, but by the 20 laps we had in the morning, I was so tired, by 10.30 pm last night, I was already in lala land...ZZzzz and woke up at about 11am this morning, only to find many many missed calls and smses... Haven't got anything to eat since I woke up... freaking hungry now... Ju juz called to ask me to swim... but can't.... someone doesn't approve of my going... being bored and hungry and the same time sux.... sux BIG TIME!! haha... anyway.... I received another call from Grace last night...

Angel, Angel... when you piss Grace off, I've to be the one to cover your ass and when you piss me off, Grace will have to cover your ass, so when are you gonna learn to cover your own ass?? Now that you pissed me and Grace off at the same time, there's no one to cover it for you anymore! First of all, do you even know that you've pissed us off since you're so engrossed in that little angelic world of yours? You're so oblivious to whatever that is happening around you or to the people around you! I'm so cheesed off by you to the point I've have absolutely no idea what to say to you anymore.... Grace and I hope that you'll stop dreaming in your own world and wake up. Angel, you're not getting any younger anymore, stop getting hung up on trivial little things.... Just in case you don't know, Grace and I are pissed, the reason why we're pissed is coz we still care, coz if we didn't, we wouldn't even bother ourselves with you, so don't you ever say we screwed you up....

Tata Young....

Its a really nice song, by Tata Young, titled Sorry Anyway.... very meaningful...

I guess I didn't read the sign at all
You call me darling
Say that you're in love
But it doesn't feel like you mean it
Although I've never been in love before
I'm sure it must be so much more than this
Cause I've never been so unhappy

Everything's wrong and backwards
Upside down
Ahh.. I'm letting you touch me but I'm cold inside
This ain't right

Sorry, I'm sorry that it's over now
We stand alone and we know it's gone,
Can't live without love
It's hard for me to know that you'll be sorry
And I don't wanna see you cry
No matter what I say, no matter what I do, you'll
Be sorry anyway

I still remember how I felt that night
The stars were out and made it all seem right
I guess I fooled myself into falling
Without a shadow of a doubt
I looked straight into his eyes
And that was the night
And I really do miss that feeling

Everything's wrong and backwards
Upside down
Ahh.. I'm letting you touch me but I'm cold inside
This ain't right

Sorry, I'm sorry that it's over now
We stand alone and we know it's gone,
Can't live without love
It's hard for me to know that you'll be sorry
And I don't wanna see you cry
No matter what I say, no matter what I do, you'll
Be sorry anyway

I don't know how to be strong when it's over
Can't face the lonely hour
It feels so wrong but it's right to tell you now
Oh I don't know why, I just wanna to cry
Oh why, It's time to let go but I want you to know I'm

Sorry, I'm sorry that it's over now
We stand alone and we know it's gone,
Can't live without love
It's hard for me to know that you'll be sorry
And I don't wanna see you cry
No matter what I say, no matter what I do, you'll
Be sorry anyway

Feeling good...

Ah.... Ju and I had a good swim today, did 20 laps within an hour, well an hour means including showering time and crappin in the pool time, but i think we were so energetic today despite our major lack of sleep was coz we had too much energy pent up inside us... Well, I'm not too sure abt her, but I definitely had lots of energy thanks to my anger pangs.... I'm angry at people who chooses what they wanna listen to and what they don't wanna listen to when they're talking to others and there are others who chooses to read things(when they don't neccessarily need to) they don't like and make a big fuss out of it! GET A LIFE!!!!

After swimming and lunch all at Ju's place, I had a good chat with Mich Ling, haha... feels weird when I type my own name out like that.. we talked of lots of stuffs, found out some things though not important to me any longer.... Everyone can see with their own eyes, I don't need to be sorry coz I've played my part and done my dues... :) as wat my fav lao shi always tell me, ming tian hui gen mei hao.... I love u lao shi...

Thinking back...

When Grace called me last night, we talked about many stuffs, we went all the way back to Primary School, when we sat on the floor together, when we would go for tuition together with Pei Shan and Gigi, Van and Ethel, to the times in Sec school with Mdm Foo, Mr Abt and we realised we're old already... haha... its been years since we left Sec school, but the memories are still so vivid... It feels like its only yesterday when I realised I got in class 3/5... we were always the noisest class, but well... I would say most teachers loved us to bits, we made them laugh (and cry: Remember Ms Soo???) We would always get into stupid trouble but yet get away... like how I climbed onto the roof to get the little kitten then got caught by Florence Ang? then I carried the cat to the school gate and got caught by Devi? hmm... the best thing was when Mr Abt told Chloe off after what she had done to me, it was then I realised, our class and teachers weren't just classmate and teachers, we were like a huge family and guardian angels... yes... there was definately bitching and shouts from across the class room (most common phrase being SHUT UP LAH!) yupz! BUT, we were always united, esp when it came to events or when required...

When I think back, I always remember that day in school, I suddenly developed high fever after PE class, but I refused to see a doctor nor go home, I insisted on staying in school, the teachers shifted me to be directly under the fan, removed my belt and bought ice for me.. Yangwen and Sarah changed the ice packets for me and I got better, but the fever refused to go even after school ended, so Sophia, Denise and Nerissa took a cab with me to see my family doctor in Bedok...

I'll be going back to my school this Teacher's Day as usual, but this year, I don't have Grace with me... *SobZ* but its ok, I'll have Mdm Foo. haha ; )

Thoughts...

Had a good 2 hour conversation with Grace last night... Hmmm... sometimes I really wanna ask this question, Angel, how often do u wanna push ur limits? Tell me one damn good reason why I really shouldn't yell at u and tell u to WAKE UP!!! There's tons of pple like these already( Need I further elaborate?)!! Grace and I love you, ur mum, your brother, your dad loves you... but do u appreciate it or even show any form of appreciation? You ask yourself that qn! Has Grace and I ever stepped you down and start chanting about retribution to you when you're already down and out? Don't you think you deserve the most retribution? We stand by you despite your being silly with B and S, especially S!! How many times did I go down to Tampines for you? Did I ever complain? Did I ever tell you:" Angel, you'll get retribution for all these, and you derserve it, you asked for it, coz we told you already." Did I? Neither did Grace! We alwiz tell you, its ok, its not too late to do something about it... Yes, we nag, so does our mothers! Why? coz we care abt you, you damn bitch! When you shoot off your mouth without processing the words thru ur thick brain, did Grace and I ever blame you? Honestly, Grace and I have absolutely no idea whatsoever that's going through your head. You're always contradicting.... Yen is one issue I don't even wanna talk about.... You always complain that I disappear when I get attached.. Oh.. REALLY???? I can't even remember when's the last time I got a received call from Angel's Hp...

I hope you'll really think hard about everything, being popular isn't everything, you don't need to have everyone liking you, remember this, when you're good, you will create an air of jealousy, so those lousy people will naturally think badly of you to make themselves feel good! And they'll call you bitch or fat or any simple words they can make up, so don't go searching for new friends, new friends are usually the idiots that plant stupid thinkings in people's head....

Despite saying so much, Grace and I still really care for you (right Grace?), we'll always be here to stand by you.

Tired....

Wasn't feeling too well today plus I didn't sleep well for the past 2 nights(which explains my hurting neck now..) so Ju and I decided to only do 10 laps, yap and the both of us have been getting too much attention from the fellow morning swimmers of the opposite sex as well as the life-guards... haha, after our swim, we sat down and talked to the life-guards and they served us snacks... hmmmm, not bad huh? haha.. anyway.... I'm dead beat now, just showered and changed and about to go shopping with Ju(*PengZ*) then meeting my smelly piggy at 7 for dinner... sounds like a long day ahead... got to go now... tata!!

Here's Tiffany, my dog! 

Bitches....

Hah! just before dinner, I saw a message that was supposed to attack me personally... hmmm... I've decided to be a bitch and here goes...

Well, even if I did require slimming gel (which is highly unnecessary based on my healthy exercise regimes), I'd rather slather on those irky gels than have to go for plastic surgery which I hope should salvage the sad face... at least I don't have a face that even my dog looks better than! (haha.. I'm not done being a bitch yet...) other than physical aspects, which I've definately won hands down compared to so-and-so(s). Let's go on to the intellectual arena... I definately do not have problems with my grammar nor articulation, sad to mention, I've already bagged a gold medal in The London Academy Of Music And Dramatic Art aka LAMDA, so just in case your brains still ain't working (is there one to begin with??) I'm telling you, you're messing with the wrong girl... I'm still not being maximum bitch, so, in order to save the remains of your horrendous looking face, just keep that low-class ah-lian mouth of yours shut.

Ok! enough bitching already, shouldn't waste too much of my 'precious' (guilty ones should know what this mean) time typing about such scums of the earth.

Great Song...

Kinda like this song!
Call him Mine : Tata Young

I can call him mine

It was only a matter of time
Before I got tired of your ways
I tried to make you fire,
But you were only ice
And you didn't seem to wanna change

So then I looked at someone new
And he was looking back at me too
Saw that I was hurt
Knew just what to say
Knew just how to push the pain away

You know I need stability
And you know you can't give it to me

My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

Though when I call him on the phone
I never feel butterflies
I know that I can trust
He'll always give me love
And I know mine will grow for him in time

He tells me that I'm beautiful
And I never ever heard that from you
He doesn't cause me pain
Tears falling like the rain
And though I'm still in love with you
You know I need stability

My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

It wasn't easy letting go but I know that I had to think of the long run and say goodbye
And find someone who appreciates me even though even though.....

My sun may never rise the way it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way that you'd do, that you'd do...
My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine

The sun may never rise again like it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way you'd do
But at least he makes me feel like I'm a part of his life
He doesn't make me cry
Doesn't make me cry
He doesn't make me cry
I know I can call him mine