Sucky....

Work is beginning to take its toll on me.... its tiring, and well yah Denise got fired, sacked, terminated however, wateva u call it..... she got into this sucky team with a sucky leader and I guess its just part of the package, when u're a erm.... how do i phrase it.... i won't say back stabber, won't say 2 headed snake, but I think its a hybrid of both.... yah.... well... somehow, I guess its only me, but its disgusting and this thought has been disturbing me for quite sometime.... remember sometime back when Denise betrayed my trust by telling Derrick the 'truth' ?? yah its running along the same lines just that now, when someone else tells her not to tell me, she really doesn't tell me!!! and that friend is a new friend and I've known her for years if not almost for life! and when I question her on why she tells Derrick wat I told her, guess wat was her justification? Well, Derrick is my friend, he's helped me before (ok, like I haven't helped her before) and I feel that he needs to know, its the truth and he ought to know about it. so I had to tell him... well... turn the tables around and I thought I would expect her to tell me the truth? but no, I'm kept in the dark til someone else tells me. So much for practise wat you preach huh.... so much for being righteous.... so much for being.... well.... Denise... anyway... ultimately, Derrick and I are just friends, he's not ready, well.... I'm emotionally unstable and no... its no one else's fault but mine own.... *smiles* ok wateva. *flicks hair off the shoulder* can't be bothered no more... my normal friends can care for me more than Derrick and Denise added together... sometimes I really think Denise and Derrick should get together so that they can finally realise how annoying insensitivity can get... oh yah... they're insensitive... don't think it should affect them.... Well... now at work.... sick and pmsing doesn't help, having morons as customers definitely doesn't lighten the workload either.... at least after work I'm joining my team for dinner at M hotel... since no one else wants to go, I shall enjoy myself with my team!! I hate mood spoilers and oh yah, talking abt mood spoilers.... Denise and Derrick are the professionals at that difficult task.... seems like someone else I know is joining their team..... ok... back to my calls....