another day...

hmmm... another day at work... I didn't leave Tampines, til 6am, he was still awake, I stood long to see him again, his lights were still on, but he was busying around his room.... Kathy and Aldrich sent me home, I alighted along the main road... walked home by myself.... I miss him and I wanted to take a cab back to see him again... when I left Tampines, I was thinking if he packed his cupboard, then again, he never did.... I wish I could cuddle him to sleep... but no it didn't happen.... I slept around 7am, and woke up at 9.15am to come to work... I still couldn't eat, now's worse... I poured a small glass of milk... but I couldn't even finish it... my mum gave me 3 paos to bring to work, but I knew I couldn't finish it, Denise din wanna go for lunch, I gave her 2, I din even think I needed the last one.... anyway, I forced it down... somehow, there wasn't any taste... weird... guess now even my tastebuds have gone wrong... I give up on smoking and drinking, they're only anti depressants for awhile... I mean it only lasts for like 5mins... nvm... we went to Clarke Quay last nite, got to know this guy called Dylan, exchanged numbers, but after awhile, I found him exceptionally irritating... not someone I wanna even be frens with... he floods me with smses, asking what am I doing, how am I coz he saw me crying to Kathy... hmmm... if only those smses came from Derrick.... then it would be a different story altogether.... honestly, he really doesn't know how much he means to me.... really....