Hurt...

Men. They lie. They hurt.They abuse. They take things for granted. And at the end of the day, I bear the brunt of it all.

My opinions, thoughts and feelings always falls on deaf ears. My suggestions either get compromised or thrown out the window without second consideration. In the end, they always say to me,"I should have listened to you." But honestly, what is the point of saying all that??? The damage has already been done and what's done cannot be undone! These people don't know what they're doing, and they refuse to admit it openly! Why?!?!?! And irony of it all??? They tell you the same thing," I Love You."

Bullshit.

Eversince Derrick, I've sealed myself shut and I never cried again, at least not for another undeserving guy. Not until recently, when these people entered my life and reminded me how horrible it was to be made upset and taught me how to cry again....

Its a fine line between love and hate and now, I'm trying very hard to keep my balance on that very fine line.... They bring my emotions on a roller coaster ride, so bad that I feel like I'm going to collapse. Actually, sometimes I wish I could just collapse and drop dead. I didn't sleep at all last night, got home at 7am and thought I could catch a nap til 9am, but no, I was wrong....

That call, that one god damn call, made me sleepless, it made me realise that everything, EVERYTHING was all for NOTHING. Either nothing should have been done right from the beginning or should hold out right to the end if something had already begun... But it seems that some people like to have things done halfway... What can I say?? My stand had never mattered right from the beginning, if it had, then things wouldn't be where they are now... Its 6+ already, no picture, no sound....

I hate this feeling... you once made me the happiest person on earth, but u have also brought me to the lowest possible. This is worse than heart wrenching. You were someone I trusted, someone I finally could open my heart to, but u were just like the rest... I carry the pink bath silvers everywhere I go, but I don't see why I should do so anymore... All those words on the cards, bullshit. I waited in the shop today, hoping to get a surprise, but I never got it...

You only started smsing me awhile ago.... Your excuse was money.... Since you think of me as someone who only stick with guys who are rich, then maybe, you are very right. We shouldn't be together because you just hurled insult at me...