I don't know, things that some person said. Should I believe? Why should I believe? After so many lies, after so much hurt, after so much pain....
Maybe you can't promise, but there are lengths that I can go for, but do you understand? No.
If one keeps thinking in a pessimistic way, nothing good is gonna come out of it....
Prob that is wat that is keeping me sane anyway...
Anyway, had a great time with all the rest at M.O.S last nite. Haven't hung out like that for quite some time already... They are a fun group of people, but as usual, I would have to pause and take care of 2 little girls, mainly Lifan and Joy.
Last nite, I learnt it the hard way that we should always have food in the stomach before drinking.... Argh, it hurt real bad.... Also learnt that should never drink on behalf of little girls on empty stomach....
My biggest consolation? I had someone who would stay up and wait for me and go the extra mile to massage my completely drained out feet at 4.30am... Now, That felt awesome.....
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Being ambiguous...
Is it me being ambiguous? Or do I just not know wat I want? Or its just the way I deal with things? Especially with regards to matters of the heart.
I feel good after cutting my fringe yesterday.... Prob I really love bangs?? Maybe its just something I always wanted instead of boring long limpy fringe just that I never bothered to take the plunge to discover it? And now that I have finally taken the plunge, I'm in love with it!
I guess this should apply to my love life. Back then, I was smsing someone. Our conversation was about being with Mr Right. That person said that maybe I should just talk to Mr Right, and ask if I was Ms Right for Mr Right. I said, I didn't dare, I don't know how to go about. That person then said that maybe Mr Right was just waiting for me to ask. I said maybe, but I still won't do it. In my memory, I never did as that someone said.
Its good to reminisce about old days.... And my bloody hi-fi is playing Heaven Knows of all time... I've already come to terms with the whole situation. I now completely agree that love is noble, I'm not saying that I am noble (although Cally strongly feels so, haha). True love is noble, there's no sense of jealousy, there's no emptiness. Though there are times when you will feel down....
Cry.... just let your tears run down, I often sit alone on my stool, and just cry.... I feel better after that and I won't trouble anyone..... I've been through so much that I don't think I need a shoulder to cry on anymore....
I'm not free of problems, I have my own fair share. I'll learn to deal with it, with or without anyone by my side.
Maybe I'll write a book, be another Lesley Pearse. Only that this love story is from within. Quotes from old letters, lovely sweet nothings written in pastel coloured pens....
Time to stop day-dreaming.....
I feel good after cutting my fringe yesterday.... Prob I really love bangs?? Maybe its just something I always wanted instead of boring long limpy fringe just that I never bothered to take the plunge to discover it? And now that I have finally taken the plunge, I'm in love with it!
I guess this should apply to my love life. Back then, I was smsing someone. Our conversation was about being with Mr Right. That person said that maybe I should just talk to Mr Right, and ask if I was Ms Right for Mr Right. I said, I didn't dare, I don't know how to go about. That person then said that maybe Mr Right was just waiting for me to ask. I said maybe, but I still won't do it. In my memory, I never did as that someone said.
Its good to reminisce about old days.... And my bloody hi-fi is playing Heaven Knows of all time... I've already come to terms with the whole situation. I now completely agree that love is noble, I'm not saying that I am noble (although Cally strongly feels so, haha). True love is noble, there's no sense of jealousy, there's no emptiness. Though there are times when you will feel down....
Cry.... just let your tears run down, I often sit alone on my stool, and just cry.... I feel better after that and I won't trouble anyone..... I've been through so much that I don't think I need a shoulder to cry on anymore....
I'm not free of problems, I have my own fair share. I'll learn to deal with it, with or without anyone by my side.
Maybe I'll write a book, be another Lesley Pearse. Only that this love story is from within. Quotes from old letters, lovely sweet nothings written in pastel coloured pens....
Time to stop day-dreaming.....
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