Angry.... very angry.... as of yesterday, its been fucked up as in FUCKED UP for me..... y?? WHY are men such mother fuckers?!!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!!??!!? U dun fucking talk nicely, all the lan jiao uey, then get together already, say, got nothing to talk abt wat.... FUCK YOU!!!! I despise such pple.... Even the scumbag of the universe deserve more respect than u!!!! Since u like to snoop around diaries and handphone messages to find out wat I think, let me save u the trouble, READ MY BLOG!!! I will think out loud so u can read to ur heart's content and will stop u from being an ass to read my diary and check my handphone.... And this motherfucker is not the end of my worst day!!!
My closest poly fren's gf, gave my number to her colleague who has been pestering her for my number.... Oh God.... u know that my love life is a fucking mess now.... dun bring another person in to drive me nuts.... and this guy is pestering lorz... I hate pestering guys.... Derrick was pestering, his pestyness caused Nic and I to break up, after I was with Derrick coz he wouldn't stop pestering me, I became just another trophy.... as much as he denies it, I'm not blind neither are my frens.... U do this to me.... for wat??? u ruined my very happy relationship with Nic, u kept coming in between and then? now, u know that Nic and I won't be together anymore then u decided that I'm just someone important enough for u to want to see me occasionally??? Wat exactly is ur problem??? u get a kick out of doing such things??? I've got nothing, zilch, ditto to say anymore.... Talk so much about integrity, principles, moral, where were all of those when u came between Nic and me??? WHERE??? in ur ass or u flushed it down the toilet bowl and only happened to find it after I gave up and decided to be with u coz u wouldn't fuck off??? U like me to come out say the things that I never wanted to say to u rite? ok, here's it,
Even Gerald was a better boyfriend, yes, he still pisses me off, but he wouldn't watch TV and talk to me at the same time, if I said I wanted to sleep early, he would talk to me first and then after I sleep then he'll watch his TV, and not tell me, either I sleep first or u wait til this programme ends. Even though he lives at one end of Singapore and I live at the other, he'll still send me home, u?? not even, I live just one MRT stop after u lorz.... not very far, but cannot even send me home.... Nicholas, yup, he's always broke and always spend money on the wrong things and listens to retarded moron like Michael, but at least even the blind can see that he really cares for me, Beethoven can hear how much he loves me.... we were even planning to get married..... U??? care for me?? how?? did u appreciate the things I did for u??? everytime I wanted a break up, you would talk shit to me, all those things that u say, all bull shit, nothing better, but could be worse... I really have to ask God, why in the world did u send such a snob of an ass into my life only to screw it up??? WHY???!!! At the end of the day, I'm the only one hurting.... I hurt the love of my life so much, he in turn has already gotten the revenge he wanted by hurting me back too, I hurt myself by being with Derrick, in the end, only to get more hurt from him.... Hey, this situation is really not fair ah.... yah Derrick always says that Nothing in this world is fair.... Its really not, how come other more adorable and lovable babies are being aborted but not him?? How come so many pple die in freak accidents but not him??? WHY WHY WHY???? I'm so angry and sad that I feel like throwing myself off the block, but being a typical girl, I dun wanna die ugly....
Maybe if I were to date again in future, make sure, he doesn't like salty food, Gerald loved salty food, Nic needs soy sauce in his rice before he'll eat it and best is to have his pok pok cai, Derrick, ah! I dun wanna talk abt him!
My throat is hurting, my back is aching, my heart is hurting, eyes are tearing, body is shaking.... wat happened??? Sick and down and out.... but no one cares.... In the past, when I was sick, Nic would rush down to my house and see how I was, if it was bad, he would bring me to the doctor despite my not liking to see a doctor, but Derrick, he doesn't care, he'll just tell u, go see doctor lah. Eh, my dog can show more concern than u lorz.... Think I better stop here.... before I start going crazy.... That bastard better be having a nightmare of his life tonight, while I lament in my blog, he's sleeping.... Well done Derrick!! U aced the test for How to be a mother fucker!! Its morning, first ray of sunlight seeping thru my window.... oh fuck, I haven't slept a wink....
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