Thoughts

I don't know how to feel.... Should I be upset? Should I be overjoyed?

Which is better? To love and to be loved? or just to be loved? Honestly, I don't know the answer... Can love grow over time? Will I ever learn to love someone else as I have loved before?

Am I happy? Is this what I really want? Do I really just wanna be loved?

Why am I going through all this?

I loved Nicholas, but he didn't appreciate, he did love me, but he just didn't appreciate....

I loved Derrick, but he just didn't care... period....

I can now only care alot.... I care for Siew Pen alot, but he loves me and adores me to bits....

Is this wat I really want?

Why do I feel this way? Why do people not reciprocate feelings towards me?

Maybe God just wanna test my patience.... Maybe he hates the fact that I read more love novels than his bible! Argh!!!