Being ambiguous...

Is it me being ambiguous? Or do I just not know wat I want? Or its just the way I deal with things? Especially with regards to matters of the heart.

I feel good after cutting my fringe yesterday.... Prob I really love bangs?? Maybe its just something I always wanted instead of boring long limpy fringe just that I never bothered to take the plunge to discover it? And now that I have finally taken the plunge, I'm in love with it!

I guess this should apply to my love life. Back then, I was smsing someone. Our conversation was about being with Mr Right. That person said that maybe I should just talk to Mr Right, and ask if I was Ms Right for Mr Right. I said, I didn't dare, I don't know how to go about. That person then said that maybe Mr Right was just waiting for me to ask. I said maybe, but I still won't do it. In my memory, I never did as that someone said.

Its good to reminisce about old days.... And my bloody hi-fi is playing Heaven Knows of all time... I've already come to terms with the whole situation. I now completely agree that love is noble, I'm not saying that I am noble (although Cally strongly feels so, haha). True love is noble, there's no sense of jealousy, there's no emptiness. Though there are times when you will feel down....

Cry.... just let your tears run down, I often sit alone on my stool, and just cry.... I feel better after that and I won't trouble anyone..... I've been through so much that I don't think I need a shoulder to cry on anymore....

I'm not free of problems, I have my own fair share. I'll learn to deal with it, with or without anyone by my side.

Maybe I'll write a book, be another Lesley Pearse. Only that this love story is from within. Quotes from old letters, lovely sweet nothings written in pastel coloured pens....

Time to stop day-dreaming.....