I don't know why, maybe everyone else is right. I do have a soft spot and only one person knows it. Maybe that person doesn't know it, maybe that person knows it.
Why did you re-appear again? I have already put you in the back of my mind, stashed away and forgotten. Why did you have to make memories re-play infront of me again? You don't have to do anything. Its not your fault, its mine.
I treasure him alot, though I don't love him as much as I did for you (I never did love anyone as much as you) Maybe I've been hurt too deep, maybe I searched all the wrong places. But I did find him, and he cares, appreciates and loves me to bits. He does everything in his power to make me happy.
Maybe the right people met at the wrong time and place, the wrong people met at the right time and place. Maybe..... Maybe.....
Many questions flood my mind, many questions that cannot be answered by neither him, me nor you.... Probably no one can. Maybe, someday, at the right time and the right place, the right person can finally tell me all the answers. But for now, I'm just taking each day as it comes. I don't want to think too much anymore.
Its been a long time since I blogged, I've been busy, I've kept myself so busy that I have no time for myself. It sucks to be sick especially over the new year. Many things has happened at the shop. I'm beginning to feel that I'm not strong enough to handle the animals, I hate it when they break a limb, I hate it when they die.... Coz I cry when they do.... I miss Blinky, Fluffy, Black Mummy..... I feel sad for Lexus and Lolita.... Its beginning to take a toll on me..... But I'm glad that at the end of the day, he's there for me. A shoulder for me cry on, an open arms for me to hide and feel assured in.
Its 4am in the morning and I can't get to sleep. I'm prob gonna cancel tuition tmrw, I've got no mood, no zest, no drive. At least not for now, too much of an emotional roller-coaster, too much churning in the head.
All I have to say is, Anyeong Hasayoh.... Nah Zhung E Puah....
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