So Excited!!!!

I don't even know why I'm so excited, I may be even more excited than Yvonne!! Prob my own maternal instincts setting in!! haha! So happy for her, back in Nov I was happy for her, getting married and all and hoping for a baby soon. Now, she's pregnant!! So exciting!!

Maybe all these excitement can help to cover my unhappiness. His sudden re-appearance and caused me much grief yet happiness. I dunno which is more though.... He tells me he doesn't know wat he wants, yet he tries to dissuade me from accepting a proposal from another guy... Maybe by the time he knows wat he wants, it might be too late for him???

I'm not prepared to play 2nd fiddle again, he must know that I'm not spare tyre anymore. I won't be the kind to tell him, its ok, I'll still be here waiting for you. I'm not and I won't.... I won't wait any longer.... I don't wanna fall prey into tweety bird's wings again, to be manipulated and misled and to be hurt.... I don't wanna end up heart broken again....

There's definitely this part of me that wants to be with him. Ultimately, we have been together for a long period of time and we've known each other since we were schooling.... But I can't constantly be the stupid one sitting and waiting around while he fools around to have fun and says things like he's not ready yet.... Hmmm.... Enough of my shit.... I'm now just excited over Yvonne's pregnancy and my shop.... I'm just contented to have Siew Pen to care for me and be there for me.... *Grateful Smile*