Its been a long time...

I almost couldn't sign in today, I forgot my new username and password... haha, thank god I recalled at the last minute....

My eyes are in great pain, I cried so hard on Tues nite that I got bak chiam... Well, the fact that I went swimming last nite prob didn't help either.... Swimming felt good... I thought about alot of things while I was swimming....

I am lost... I thought I had everything worked out, but actually, I am still lost.... Maybe I shouldn't think so much...

U tell me that u love me, but ur actions n words are not coherent....

U say that all's not lost, but u refuse to tell me the truth....

U say that u can accept me, but yet, u complain....

U think that he is the best, but he has more flaws than me...

U want everything done ur way, u never took my opinions, ur new car is the best example... My opinions were always for ur own good, but u prob think that I'm juz trying to be annoying....

Maybe, we were never meant to be

Maybe, we try too hard

Maybe, if I hadn't left, things would be different

Maybe, I fell in love with the right guy at the wrong time

Maybe, if you hadn't done wat u had, I wouldn't have left

Maybe, if you had told me the truth abt that prostitute, I would be more positive

Whether its too late or not, its not up to u, alone, to decide....



My birthday is coming again... Will I be sobbing tears of joy? Or will I continue to sing that same song again and again?

This year, will be slightly different though, I'll be celebrating my birthday with Jovyna, Athena, Jie Ming, Jeremy, my classmates, a few close frens (Sebas, Denise, Grace) and Jo and Jeremy's frens... 3 birthday kids celebrating together...

Haiz.... Back to studying...