Bored......

I'm bored.... still stuck at work.... its 30 mins to knock off time.... Grace called me just now to ask how I am, I told her not to worry coz I've recovered and fine, only thing that I haven't recovered from is my cold.... still coughing, but getting better.... It feels good to be normal again, somehow, the air seems fresher, everyone looks at me differently now... feeling confident and after shedding all that weight helps, not to mention my sudden increase in number of clothes too... ;)

hmmm.... everything is different now, even talking to Denise feels different now, oh yes maybe I should use what Derrick said to me, "I'm not angry or upset, I'm just disgusted...." yup, thinking back, I'm just disgusted at how Derrick can treat me like this and how Denise can just wash her hands off her hurt and upset friend. I'll always remember this "Michelle, I'm sorry that I hurt you, but I'm not sorry that I met up with Derrick" Yup, I'll always remember that and you know what? I'm just sorry that things can never be the same again coz I know the kind of friend you are. I'm not mean yet, If I was mean or if I were to be mean, I would say, you're not just a not good friend, you're not a good girlfriend and you know it, its fine by me if you want to screw up your own relationship but why screw mine up as well! Well, I can't blame her for telling the 'truth', I can only say that Derrick wasn't willing to put in the effort that he said he would.... If the night I was with Nicholas, would I be silly enough to tell of all people Denise when I can tell Angel or Grace and know that I would never risk having it told to Derrick? Hmmm.... logical people they both are, but they both don't think logically.... then again Derrick did say, "Perception is sometimes more true than the truth" Oh, so why bother having to know the truth, that's the reason why I didn't explain this entire truth to him, he'll probably say I'm justifying myself again. so *fling hands in the air* Whatever! I'm not the one who lost, he lost someone who would be silly enought to mellow down and love him wholeheartedly, whereas I lost someone who didn't respect me. I'm not angry with him, I can't be bothered anymore or should I say, "I used to not having you around me anymore" Those were his exact words to me.... Well, I'm not only used to not having him around me, I've realised how much happier I am without him and the amount of things I can do without him! Well, things are looking brighter now, I'm looking forward to CNY, I don't wanna let them get me down and ruin my CNY, I wanna be glowing with radience and not looking like a hag on CNY.... Cheers to all, Michelle is back! ;)